my life is not mine

2009-08-03T20:28:00.000+08:00

changed to new blog
http://youbeng.wordpress.com

2009-07-14T12:36:00.002+08:00

Reading the bible and hear this sound ringing downstairs. oooh, its actually the bus engine sound.
It sounded just like the keyboard/synthesizer, i was quite sure it is the note B so i took my guitar and played B on the A string. WOW it is! (maybe cause church always play in B key so can recognise)
I wont say the sound generated by the engine is a perfect B neither it is out of tune.

Isnt it great that even these sounds carry musical notes?
The small little details can form a symphony that will inspire and motivate?
In life, it may seem like your playing a melody thats out of tune, wrong key, wrong tuning and so on.
But looking from God's point of view, He could turn these unhappy notes into a beautiful piece which He enjoys.
He can tune you to His tunings, even if you hit the wrong notes, He will make it whole (whole note if you know what im talking).

He is like the conductor, a perfect one, and at times we don't seem to be able to catch up but will you trust that if you hand over to Him, He will let you hear the melody that is uniquely you.

If you are on the stage, He is your fan but at the same time your music director.

2009-07-05T10:24:00.002+08:00

cellgroup was great yesterday, it wasnt just an ordinary sharing. The hearts of the people are really tender.

Throughout the few years, people come and go. We are really building a family in here, a community that we may not expect to be ideal but at least for eternity.

If i could, i would want to compile all their struggle in faith. Everyone will come to this stage where they have to depend on God in faith even though they can't feel and see Him working at all. It is this period where we grow stonger to follow.
We will be surprised to know how much we forsake for the cause. There is a lot of things worth doubting but nothing new is under the sun.
"Yet indeed I also count all things loss for the excellence of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them as rubbish, that I may gain Christ.."

In the end, what ghim said, wisdom is meaningless.

Someday they will come back. Maybe their kids will go to the same kindergarten in church. Maybe the words in the book may help them through. Probably

I grew up in Sunday school
I memorized the Golden Rule
And how Jesus came to set the sinner free
I know the story inside out
I can tell you all about
The path that led Him up to Calvary
But ask me why He loves me
And I don't know what to say
But I'll never be the same
Because He changed my life when He became...

Everything to me
He's more than a story
More than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything, everything to me

We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that I'm aware
Of just how fragile life can be
I want to tell the world I found
A love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see
Now every day I'm praying
Just to give my heart away
I want to live for Jesus
So that someone else might see that He is...

Everything to me
He's more than a story
More than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything
And looking back over my life at the end
I'll go to meet You saying You've been

You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page of history You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page of history
You're the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
You're everything
Lord, You're everything to me

2009-07-02T16:39:00.003+08:00

hm...mst is over and boredom is something to be dealt with now!
this mst was quite slack, didnt study very hard(compared to past) but good thing i prayed so i guess its God; things that i studied appeared on the paper.

I only studied the particular module the day before while other people is like studied the notes over and over again. I hope its not just my extreme-optimism =/
Last paper was ): but i think will pass luh, know bits and pieces of everything.

this blog has been dead for some time but i will just treat it as dairy heh

long long hair: bagus

i felt far away from You and..

2009-06-28T00:26:00.002+08:00

was bored and didnt have motivation to do the assignments. After listening to some inspirational songs and talking to someone, i think i should gather enough courage to face it.

Talking about first love, you wake up to think of that person. And constantly finding ways to please the person. Sometimes you just enjoy even the silence in the presence.

After quite a long time, you find that your draining out in pursuing.
When it is so near yet so far, you wished that the other side will understand your plight and what you needed in the person.

What if the other side understood you completely, loved with all everything and have already prepared a great deal of what you ever imagined you would get but it just required you to trust and keep loving.
It might not just come at the end of the journey instead surprises might be hidden like kinder bueno along the way.

Love is patient, love is kind
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

2009-06-26T01:47:00.003+08:00

Jesus Christ gave His life as a ransom for me.
The harder i fall, the more i want to stretch to reach to Him.
There is nothing too great that can separate this love except our self-thought reaction to failure.

There are alot of reasons for me to just chuck the 'responsibility' of God aside but never the relationship with God.

hm...if i were to be just a normal church going christian without fulfiling my destiny, i wonder what kind of family culture i am going to create. Or even what kind of wife!
i wonder if my present family will hear the gospel
I wonder if i will bring my kids to church or read to them stories from the Bible during their bedtime.
I wonder if i will even be a good husband, am i going to just react like i used to?
if i die, i wonder will they put me beside all the other gods.

I wonder what my future will be without God.
cause i can't imagine

:D think about it

2009-06-23T11:58:00.001+08:00

im not afraid you will be unfaithful but im afraid i will.
maybe its the right one just that it is not the right time.

:o test coming

2009-06-22T01:42:00.002+08:00

yeah those debates are quite meaningless, chasing after nothing(not even wind!)

go on to these debates hoping to change the opposition's mind somehow, someway but as it goes on both parties just cannot give in to accept one another's view.

Look in a way; what is the intention of it?
to encourage or tear you down?

My advice is don't even reply to the question, soon when it does not have the appeal, it will start to think about its own existance. You can't probably make someone repent through debates, it never worked, as far as i know.

I'm too lazy luh, rather spend time looking at the wall. =D

2009-06-20T00:54:00.003+08:00

what did i aspire to be in the first place?

seems like ambition rings louder than the calling. Or is it?
As long as its good in the kingdom's view!

2009-06-19T03:07:00.002+08:00

To people who has been affected by those messages of hate and doubts.

The Bible states: See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of this world rather than on Christ. Colossians 2:8

See, that person has developed his own christianity based on experiences and the world's idea of how things work or even just tradition that isn't what we believe at all. Those messages causes doubts. Yes it is factual that things are like that in the Bible but some grey are empahsized more and neglecting the other parts, giving half truth that never provide a solution. In the end, the doubts never got an answer, ultimately falling short of God.
You can start to think who would do that; someone following Christ or not.

Wheres the faith and love element?

God i fall short of you, bring me back.
search my heart, let me hate just only the sin.

2009-06-14T14:12:00.002+08:00

worship with Ps Henry Seeley was great. The whole atmosphere just made me worshipped without any worries. No one watching no one cares about whether the singing is loud or the pitch no one could hit.

As worship is brought down to a smaller scale, people just cared how u worship BUT we are all taught not to even give a hood to person beside you when you worship. Just worship God the way you do! (well...unless it is really unacceptable as a congregation. Stumbling...so to speak)

Ps Henry inspired me to be like him. Ofcourse, i have other people that really inspired me in the aspect of music.

2009-06-13T00:28:00.002+08:00

Galatians 6:1-5
1Brothers, if someone is caught in a sin, you who are spiritual should restore him gently. But watch yourself, or you also may be tempted. 2Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ. 3If anyone thinks he is something when he is nothing, he deceives himself. 4Each one should test his own actions. Then he can take pride in himself, without comparing himself to somebody else, 5for each one should carry his own load.

wow this message is amazing! i have to look unto Jesus. Sometime it seems so natural and normal to compare to others but nono, im validated by only God. Only approved by God not anyone's expectation but God.

I have never done my best in anything, even after accepting Christ, yeah everything. By using this "law", i should be guilty of every soul left.
But lets say for example: i done my best(if i really do), the person still chose to go. I am accountable to God but in the eyes of man(or simply in my own eyes), it is not the case. It is still deemed as my fault; the system we planned out failed.
If i haven't done my best but the person is convicted to stay, by men's eyes, i am a successful leader.

just look for God's validation rather than man's. Cutting a finger of a man doesnt do any help for the whole body unless this finger is really rotting badly which can cause harm to the body.

In the same way, hold on to what God placed you in. Giving up doesnt guarantee the situation is gonna be better or even someone can replace you.

your life is not defined by your ministry. But let what you do be glorifying to God; an outward expression of your love.

2009-06-12T00:44:00.002+08:00

My life...since the decision which is deadly to my nature was made, changed. What really changed? I can't explain it. Its amazing i know.
There was this time i was so close to God or God is literally the One that i really have or needed.

But things changed, im exposed more to knowledge. I wont say its for the worst but just that intimacy and intensity will not be the same anymore. I trust in God but i know myself too well.

After knowing heaven, i dont wanna know any other place other than that.
What if i become the person that i never wanted to become.

Can You always bring me back to You? When i'm lazy, please motivate me and love me.
Give that bunch of fire, or maybe just that someone to stay alert and lead on.

I pray for people out there to stay passionate, relentless.
Don't let our age, background, peers or anything to determine who we are and what we do. Don't let the "growing-up syndrome" take hold of us!

(: keep moving on

2009-06-09T01:43:00.002+08:00

woah never thought that i would need to struggle with this. always thought those stuffs were never for me but i think im just protected.
If it is God's will.. Afterall, its the best for all.

oh, how can i missed the point that it is You who gave me this gift. You are the director of music man! So let these music be inspiring! i think i just dont have the anointing to be worship leader. I know what i should do but abit hard luh.

2008-11-28T00:26:00.002+08:00

i need living water for my soul. :D

no secrets can be kept secrets forever. so no point doing the things that lead to shame and source of ownself discouragement.

yeah YI camp is coming! YES! let this camp be better than last year. let the people who went to the camp be stronger and not entertain the devil's negotiation to bring you out.
This holiday, im gonna take a break(which i am constantly having)going to taiwan for 7days and miss leaders retreat... ARGGHH leaders retreat is the most anticipated event of the year man..

well lets pray that our fire will burn brightly.
BOB=BURN OUT BRIGHT!

2008-11-24T20:50:00.003+08:00

SUPER ULTRA DEEPLY VERY GRACIOUSLY
BEEEEEEEEEEZY

2008-11-11T23:58:00.002+08:00

why be so worrisome? why wear a facade? its absolutely not noble at all.
its better to be transparent than to always hide away from people and trying to be mysterious. its not cool ya know
er..not pointing at anyone, just random thoughts. lol

hey young adults out there. i know people expect from you alot. you try to meet those expectations but sometimes you fail whether intentionally or unintentionally.
somehow u feel that u get more scoldings than affirmation and encouragement.
BUT be strong, dun let your heart harden against people nor God. If u need a close, loyal, understanding and trustworthy fren, pray about it and act according to it. That means u have to be a close, loyal, understanding and trustworthy fren to someone. it will be more blessed to give than receive.
i guess its transition

study is good! but no one seem to like it =/
guitar is good! but i dun have time now. must get GPA 3 for tis sem. CHIONG!
praying is absolutely good, i like it, i will make time for it.
recently quite busy with studies but God is good, He gonna mold me to become more like Him.

2008-11-07T22:54:00.002+08:00

i wanna dedicate this song "never let me go" by hillsong united to tertiary and all ppl who are having projects and felt that they have too much to do.

this song is my favorite song at the moment even though its quite a old song but i like how the lyrics is presented in a very soothing music and melody. This song is not really famous and popular, maybe my preference is weird but i listen to lyrics more than the melody.
the song ended by telling God "i'll never let you go"

2008-11-04T19:58:00.002+08:00

Hey ya! ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I UPDATED!!

ok lets start with the bday celebration that zealot3 gave me.
I knew some people were up to something on 27 oct(my real bday date) deepavali after the svc 2 pm
lz said there will be meeting later and sab is joining on behalf of zealot4
i told him: why not tell the others in zealot4 to come too? they might give good ideas
the more the merrier (well..i really mean the celebration)

so we got on a icecream shop and lz lied all the way LOL; "julia and irvin will be late for meeting"
we got our butts on the chair and lz distracted me by talking abt how good the shop is luh, can put photos on the board and..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!(beng)
didnt expect cellgroup to give that sweet surprise. :D

THE NEXT BEST THING IS.. 29 oct...
on following wed they used BRX, this time i got owned badly
i really did thought BRX was gonna meet me for ministry
school ended, hop on to van and he was gonna bring me to somewhere to talk
(he didnt say hes gonna meet for ministry or talk, i was suspecting abit so i didnt ask)
got on to boat quay, walked walked to find that place. jerome called him and was gonna meet him after he met me. (this was not in the plan)
then he called his fren "Alex" asking where the place is and we reached the place.
(jj picked up and who was blurred who is alex den i think junde answered)

Its minds cafe, at this pt, im quite sure im in for something.
walked up the stairs
!!!
!!
!!
a familiar song was sang and my heart skipped a beat.
woah more than half the cellgroup was there man,
no gift or guitar can compare to this..being honored by the very members i prayed for everyday
My wish is that God bless them more than what they blessed me
THANK EVERY WHO RMB, THOUGHT OF, NEVER THOUGHT OF, ONCE THOUGHT OF, DONE SOMETHING FOR THIS BDAY. :) :)

ok wads next..
uh..reminded of incident.
i went off earlier from tuesday prayer meeting. i think its on 21 oct
was gonna go to the bank in beauty world, den i saw this old man having difficulty standing up(think he fell down), soft voice in me told me to help this old man but i ignored and went down to the bank but on the way, i felt very uncomfortable so i rushed upstairs and i saw the shop assistants in the korean shop helping him.

felt really badd abt that, i ignored God. it reminded me that if i don't do what i should do, other people will do what i should do but the whole process of getting the destination will be delayed.
i wish i was listening to songs like "here i am send me" or "dare you to move" at that pt but i learned something

ok thats all, lazy to type more. gotta have more time study, ministry and improve guitar
bb

2008-10-13T21:45:00.002+08:00

"anyone who has the ability to carry a guitar has talent to play a guitar"

"living church just on weekends, are you satisfied?" the constant question i ask myself

sometimes i very encouraged by what the cell mates done, i mean REALLY encouraged but theres time i feel disappointed.

im still discontented now. im not satisfied with just seeing people putting their focus attracting attention. im not satisfied with where i am with God yet. i want more. Theres too much words, too much emotion and thoughts which i can't express

talking about living 'christian' on weekend, reminded me of Jagjit testimony. Awesome, never heard of that in Singapore. His stand for to love God is inmeasurable. While there are people who are bound in chains and still running towards God, there are people who would run away from God; taking our Saviour for granted.
God is good! He is a friend yet a a Father who loves me and you
But no matter who you are, you still belong to God. God is faithful, He will not forsake u even if u forsake Him.

be faithful and stay close. Don't threaten to give up. let your love be strong.

2008-08-07T00:51:00.003+08:00

Guitar + pig= Guitar pig(pick)! hm...not funny

Proverbs 24:33 A little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of the hands to rest-
34 and poverty will come on you like a bandit and scarcity like an armed man.

indeed laziness dun get a person anywhere far.
sometimes teens do wanna be disciplined and get well in studies, do what their parents want them to do. To be a good child. Be a person that God wills.
But just that there is too many, too many things to do and teens who have to care about their relationship with everyone, their results and their own conviction.
Now we gotta understand young ppl are sensitive and tend to have swings.

The Bible tells us not to be anxious about anything but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanks giving, present your request to God.
frankly, throughout my Christian walk, i never once said that i am stressed.
being stressed is taking your focus away from God.

Everyone fights for their own rights, fight for your own salvation.
are you gonna break up like those who did?

this is your life are you who you wanna be

cheer up! you can only cheer up when you cheer others up!
discourage others and find yourself be discouraged soon
dun say things like "fail the test already la!" "i just pass only, i am not any better ( where in fact, everyone failed the test)" "sure die"

HELLO!

2008-07-14T00:12:00.003+08:00

=D im back... with a short post.

Genesis 17 :1WHEN ABRAM was ninety-nine years old, the Lord appeared to him and said, I am the Almighty God; walk and live habitually before Me and be perfect (blameless, wholehearted, complete). 2And I will make My covenant (solemn pledge) between Me and you and will multiply you exceedingly.Amp version

its amazing! The first thing God said to Abram is to "walk and live HABITUALLY & be perfect (blameless, wholehearted, complete) " then, the covenant will be set.
it just tells me how IMPORTANT be righteous means in God's eye.

EVERYTIME not just sometimes, God requires us to be blameless in His sight and walk with Him to be able to be used by Him. Keeping this life pure is very important for me. Its my top priority, i wanna be like Jesus, who will not deny His own character to do something.
Let God's character be my character.

Life isnt meant to be average but its hard to live a high standard life without someone pushing you on like a coach.
Michael Jordan had a coach that will always push beyond his limits and thats why he could do wad he could do. after the coach left the team, he left the team too.

its like relying on God to drive you on for greater heights in different area of your life; it may be ministry, spiritual life, studies, sports, relationship with people, wisdom and all...
oh God will never walk out half way so don't walk out of God too.

God will bless u diferent gifts(talents) but something to be aware of is that use your talents for the glory of the kingdom not for your ambition.
Jeremiah 9:23 Let not the wise man glory in his wisdom, Let not the mighty man glory in his might, Nor let the rich man glory in his riches;

1 corinthians 10:31 Therefore, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.

everyday has a new dawn for us. it represent the hope and freedom everyone can have. you just have to open your eyes and take a notice of it.

2007-12-24T14:59:00.000+08:00

alright decided to blog ahhahh
i can't imagine there is actually people living with me in the same house going to hell!

God really did opened my eyes.
I felt a prompting that God wants me to write songs to glorify His holy name. its cool.

Focus hocus pocus. Come guys rise up to take responsibility of this generation.

2007-12-10T23:07:00.000+08:00

its hurting to see people come and people go.
be the catcher to 'catch' souls outside.

why chase after the world to hurt God. I don't know wad people are thinking but i do know they lost the love. They might even forget the things God done. Have you forgotten how u prayed to God and He answered your prayer?

Have you forgotten the times that you spend worshipping and praising Him for who He is? The emotions you gave to God, was it fake?

Is it worth it? Does God deserve the attitude that you walk in to His presence and walk out anytime you like?

Christians leave for several reasons:
-->> DON HAVE RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD
-->> Don't want to commit to follow God
-->> Conflicts with people
-->> The world offer better things and they went for it
-->> To invoke people to give attention
-->> Tired (for what ever reason)
-->> ashamed and guilty of past mess up
-->> Fear (disappointment, commitment etc..)
-->> Don't believe in God anymore
-->> Friends leave then follow lor
-->> No more "feel"
-->> No longer fun?
-->> People don't understand me (Jesus does (:)
-->> aiya Church too far!

blah blah and many many more...

Remember God died for you and me on the cross.

2007-12-02T22:00:00.000+08:00

But you are to hold fast to the LORD your God, as you have until now.

So be very careful to love the LORD your God.

You know with all your heart and soul that not one of all the good promises the LORD your God gave you has failed. Every promise has been fulfilled; not one has failed

i missed out the part where God disciplines His child in love. I can forget doing homework,sleep,my name but not forgetting about obeying Him, who God is and God's promises. (:

slave?
Probably why somebody is a slave is because:
1.the person is in HUGE debts so he needs to sell himself to slave to clear the debt.
2. The person have no ability to feed himself
3. Family sold him to earn money

so wads the outcome being slave?
->> be like a maid!
->> do wadever the master ask you no matter how humiliating or difficulty
->> U will be seen as a object to be traded

I like what Paul said, he made himself slave to Christ. wow man its a strong word!
But God is faithful, He will not give you a task u cannot bear.
Giving God the complete ownership of his life. Whole life dedicated to God. i dun use the word "bound" cus being with God is a privilege.

Are you ready for the wave God is gonna bring? Once you told God that you give up ur comfort for the cross, your life will be met with opportunities that will mold you.

2007-11-21T20:56:00.000+08:00

What ever God revealed to me, He wants me to do something about it. hm..

my family members are all out so i can do anything i like, ate my dinner and go shower. Inside the toilet i started talking to myself the vision of the ministry then started singing my own song with my own style to worship God.

Before that, God somehow told me, are u satisfied with singing songs other people wrote to praise Me?

When is God gonna provide me guitar? Let it go according to God's will.

Alright lets work this salvation out of our knees. PRAY I MEAN.

2007-11-04T12:07:00.000+08:00

i gave up guitar until the Lord provides me one. its hard to understand but i gave it to God.
sorry and thank you God.
praying for the bbq event what i can do.
it depends on me.

2007-09-25T08:12:00.000+08:00

i have failed, have i done enough?
It is time to deny my own desires and do the things thats pleasing to God. Let me do the things that my spirit wants to do and reject any desire my soul wants.

There is no excuse for me to do things that are godly, things that are impossible,things that will consume my energy or time. I hate the " i need people to care for me" kind of stuff but nevertheless i will treat people the way they want to be treated but i want others to treat me the way i don't want to be treated. I will do the things that i don't feel like doing.

Its all giving out~yeah man. Its going outward, its going outward. it will lead me on to be the ideal world changer. Yeah what ever come my way, BRING IT ON HAHAHAHA.
i have tried to impart these to my people but they somehow don't buy it.
Should the "world changer" idea be only my idea? a idea can only be a idea, 2nd step is to believe and then act on your believe and be convicted.

->>>luke 16:31 If they won’t listen to Moses and the prophets, they won’t listen even if someone rises from the dead

2007-09-08T10:59:00.000+08:00

haven been posting my qt

today~Proverbs 11:4 Riches won’t help on the day of judgment,
but right living can save you from death. character will be eternal. So no use spending so much time on things that are temporary, spend time with God and reflect on ourself. Spend time thinking about your own growth.
: 7 When the wicked die, their hopes die with them,
for they rely on their own feeble strength. Why not turn to the God who alone are the hope for life?
In this chapter it compares the wise and the wicked, the wicked one always tio the bad consequences but God will protect the godly

v 13 A gossip goes around telling secrets,
but those who are trustworthy can keep a confidence.
->> hey before we say that others is a gossiper at other's back, aren't you a gossiper if u say that someone is a gossiper at the person's back?

18 Evil people get rich for the moment,
but the reward of the godly will last. This is temporary~

Give freely and become more wealthy;
be stingy and lose everything.

2007-08-29T12:49:00.000+08:00

haha haven been going out to play alot, stayed home cause its raining raining. raining is bad for health :(. when ppl go jogging they will slip n fall :(:(:( causes my clothes to be wet :(:(:( causes flood :(:(:( causes my slippers to be wet :(:( hehe

wisdom wisdom what is wisdom? I think now i need wisdom to be good in everything. wisdom = ability to apply knowledge or experience or understanding or common sense and insight.
Found this statement very true. Fear of the Lord is the beggining to wisdom. Sometimes its not wise to put everything u feel on the blog. A blog is to let others see not private if it is private why let people know u got a blog. Even its a private blog will you put all your hatred u have on somebody, all your anger and vulgar blah blah...?
take a look back on past post, you have a 'pleasant' life story huh
Proverbs 2:6 For the LORD gives wisdom, and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding. wisdom knowledge and understanding come hand in hand. putting knowledge into practice. i think that is very important to grow as a Christian, i really hope people around will start to be mature and think wise.

some simple understanding: When a person refuse to listen to advices and saying he/she wants to leave church(even though got do quiet time) then, probably the person lacks attention,the affirmation and appreciation from people.
This guy need someone to complaint to, maybe he or she had some problems and no one knew that. this person or guy might be in 'emo state'. Pray God speak to the person directly<<>
he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,
it is our character that is most important. Your action shows your character. being blameless,hm... ask God to judge you, know the truth.

Wisdom in character will save you! correct judgment will protect you! Wise choices will watch over you.

2007-08-27T15:26:00.000+08:00

baaaccckk to post my quiet time~`.'~ didnt post don't mean that i dun do my qt lol...
have been reading psalm for a period.

God have been speaking and giving the evidence of what my church is teaching now. example for this: Pslam 142:2- I pour out my complaint before him;
before him I tell my trouble.
cool huh. Thank you God for boosting my knowledge of the word so when i teach others to complaint to God first before other people, i will use this verse. cool God.
verse 7- Set free of bondage, stronghold, mindset, unbelief or things like that. Human will know its wrong because we have conscience and God do speak to us. God do speak to me at least.

Psalm 143
trying to understand what david is feeling, his enemies chase him down. In his distress he praised God and know that God will come to his relief. David remembered what God had done. Thinking back boost his faith. For me i have alot life experience that i went through with God if i were to share to others i don't know where to start. Mission trip is the prominent one. If you were to think of backsliding, think to yourself, did you really try God out? or did you wan God to try you? Having no memories between you and God? maybe because you dun even have a relationship with God from the start.

i remembered the times when i first came to know God. I accepted Christ because i thought "if there is really heaven and hell, then let me go heaven".
Thats the reason i accepted Christ. i dunno why but i got convicted to follow Christ. My mum got angry cus i go church(thats abt 2weeks after i accepted christ), from then on i got serious parent objection. Doing quiet time is a big problem, i tried reading the bible openly but i got scolded and i would hide myself and read the bible. In that time, i would find ways to read the bible, i will wake up during midnight and have my devotion to God. When others are watching tv, i will go to my room. That was my first love and i never knew wad first love was. Even when God is speaking to me, i don't know that it is God prompting me because i had fear in me and alot of doubts. During this time i depended alot on God. Life is a torment with all these problems but i didnt dare to tell others because i have this mind set of "not giving others problems" and "serve others,help their problem". Emotions cannot be controlled, i feel the way any one will feel BUT i didnt think in the way i feel. Thats the time i grow alot alot. before i know it, i got 3 disciples and very soon after i became a core leader. With that much fear in me and such a responsibility, God led me out.

kinda think of my life, it is meaningful and wow. I think in the past i have the mindset of "being a leader should know everything" so i got abit of fear BUT it led me to be curious and started researching on things i want to know and i would ask God for help. So now i could understand how people feel because i gone through it, yeep i felt the way members would feel but something different is the thinking and the reaction.
These are abit of stories with God that will constantly remind me how great God is.

Reminiscing.(:)

2007-08-23T11:29:00.000+08:00

read psalm 135 made me realise of praising God. the initial stage where we start to praise God with all we got. Your name, O LORD, endures forever,Your fame, O LORD, throughout all generations.
& pslam 136 all about God's mercy, imagine what the author had gone through that made him to write about God's mercy

mercy have 2 about the similar meaning which i found its good: 1) the discretionary power of a judge to pardon someone or to mitigate punishment
2)Something for which to be thankful; a blessing.
In Psalm 136 probably its the 2nd meaning of mercy. He was thanking God for the Earth he is living in, the grace he had.Thanking God for the hello kitty and computer(jus kidding).

Mercy translate to spanish is "compasión" sounds like compassion huh? it is. :)
Mercy is not just the chocolate or being lenient of the punishment, it shows the character and the heart. Bcus God is merciful i think i shld be, hm.. let God give me test. Wad can endure forever except for God and true disciples that follow him?

Psalm 137:9 Happy is the one who takes your babies and smashes them against the rocks!
Take a look what this person is going through, God did not tell him to smash his baby on the rock but he is being genuine with his feeling to God. The person was in such sorrow over his home that he said this. God wouldnt tell some1 to do this~ Jesus said "if anyone causes the little ones to stumble and fall, its better for you to tie a rock around your neck and throw yourself to the sea".

holidays are here what am i gonna do? hm...self reflecting =D
ok only linked zealot 3 ppl, others slowly ba.

2007-08-21T21:52:00.000+08:00

just swam past the channel 5 show life story, didnt watch much. wo indeed the most wanted man in Sg became a pastor. WOW could imagine if any one were to tell him some negative comments abt themselve, what will the pastor say?
hm...dreams? some dreams only meant to be dream. reach to a stage of maturity where God is all even of giving up 'dreams' that i would call. Dreams like being a star(woo~~), singer or wad ar. lol i would think of being a singer all these too ^^. Its cool to write own songs huh.
Sometime i get proud over myself being able to sing well. Well only in praising and worshiping God. ^^

Long before time, someone asked me that being a Christian issit giving up your dreams? I felt like saying "yes"(at that time i not so spiritually mature) that time but the person is not at that stage yet lah so i said "no". the truth is being a disciple is.

Heard of this?-->> "Being saved cost us nothing, being a disciple cost us everything"

Pondered over a question "will God call us to be a road sweeper?"
there is no answer to it because the question is wrong =D
it should be "What is God's calling?" den there is an answer.

hehe anyone who read this post, God bless you. Go find out your calling.

Long time ago, brother slyvester(now in service one) gave up a chance to go taiwan for some stardom but he gave up because it will take away his chance to get closer to God abit. wow i still remember even though its like more than a year ago.
Hm..if i were a singer then i have influence over people then people will know the God that i have. wooo
mission trip weeeeeee

2007-08-20T07:24:00.000+08:00

today's qt turned back to read at psalm

psalm 128:1 Blessed are all who fear the LORD,
who walk in his ways.

Fear must always be reminded constantly, no such thing that worship God now and later start to hate other people. Would God hate you? Always listen to people's advices because in this way you are obeying God's word and walk in His way. If there were arguments of whether to obey, that means you dun really know who is God huh. Im sure to tell whatever advice i give others its biblical, i will find the verse.

For example advising others to sleep early: Psalm 127:2 It is vain for you to rise up early, To sit up late, To eat the bread of sorrows; For so He gives His beloved sleep.

ytd qt taught of reaping in tears but sow with joy.today:psalm 128:2 When you eat the labor of your hands,You shall be happy, and it shall be well with you.

seek God and ask for blessing :D
mission trip is near, let me be able to gogogo.

2007-08-18T10:53:00.001+08:00

didnt post ytd qt. but shall post today's.

Zephaniah means the Lord is my secret. hey make sense huh? The Lord is the one behind helping me but i shall not keep it as a secret.

Zapheniah 3
2 She obeys no one,
she accepts no correction.
She does not trust in the LORD,
she does not draw near to her God.
Sounds like somebody? Review over own life and be humble. Don't think about others life on what wrong the person had done, what can you do? blame the person and have hatred? Blaming others is a selfish act. Think abt own life, be guilty over what you done. Weep over the sin.

The punishment on Jerusalem. God judge according to the character people are in them. But there is surely deliverance after the punishment. There will be singing and dancing rejoicing i the salvation.

2007-08-16T12:57:00.000+08:00

read Habakkuk 3

Revive Your works oh Lord. Use me us as instrument of righteousness, let the golden age come, You are the only God that can fill my heart. I need more of God. When im alone let me seek you all the more, make me a true Man following Your heart. I do homework, projects and works. But these are never closer to me than You. I seek You more. I crave for your presence wherever i go, i sing your praise .

God measure th Earth, measure my heart. Do i have space left? i can't act like a worldly leader where i expect my members but quiet time is for ME not for others. Is there any vacuum that is left for other things other than God? if there is, God fill the vacuum and only God can.
Get a smile on Your face.

:13 You came out to deliver your people,
to save your anointed one.
You crushed the leader of the land of wickedness,
you stripped him from head to foot.

Though people are against me. The hope in men fails.
Though emotions are out of control and my work are not satisfied.
Emptiness rob me my motivation or fear causing distraction.
Even of disappointment that brings guilt lingers,
yet i will rejoice in the Lord, my Salvation, my all and All i have.

Im left home alone, a strong urge to worship God in my closet. Reaching a place no one had been. Having a strong and close relationship that nothing so great will stop the Love between me and God.
Im not stagnant, i am still growing. im contented but not satisfied. I want more.

Great effective quiet time. Hope everytime im alone at home i can do this.

To any member who were to see this.
Watch your discipler as they do. Help your discipler as they do. Your discipler help you when you do. Your discipler watch you as you do.
-> As you observe your leader and knowing their purpose, you will grow fast.

2007-08-15T10:19:00.001+08:00

haha didnt post the last few quiet time.
argh .
alrite seeking God in the morning of the exam day. woo, come on God gonna bless me. Matthew 6:33 seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and all of these shall be added on you.
Memorise this verse man!

Habakkuk 2
this a book i rarely hear about~ more on prophecies.
:3 -For the revelation awaits an appointed time;
it speaks of the end
and will not prove false.
Though it linger, wait for it;
it will certainly come and will not delay.
always praying God reveal something to me sometimes He does but when i dun get it , i panick. So wait for His appointed time.

:5 Because he enlarges his desire as hell,
And he is like death, and cannot be satisfied
-> found myself playing abit much games, it spoke to me that this desire for worldly stuff will cause me death. Fear of the Lord came upon me. The desire will grow stronger and stronger.

here also teaches us not to owe people debts
: 7 Suddenly, your debtors will take action.
They will turn on you and take all you have,
while you stand trembling and helpless.

Don't take what is not yours, don't build on the foundation that God has not laid. Taking revenge is taking what is not yours! its God's job, if you do, other people will have revenge on you and the wicked cycle continues, if you are the one whoo started it, you bring shame! to people around you, to yourself and God. Taking revenge shows your ignorant and foolishness. Why don't just give in to people? We are child of God, we are secured in God's indentity, theres no need other poeple to confirm that we are one! What sorrow awaits.

Being prideful is the last thing a leader would want to have. A good leader is a good servant like Jesus.
What sorrow awaits you who put your hope in men! oi put your hope in God lah. surely dun need to remind again.

2007-08-13T10:25:00.000+08:00

read James 2
God forbids favoritism in us! wow this is what i wanted to say so much to everyone(in a cellgroup), don't show attention to people who looks good or the popular guys or girls. For me, i would always talk to people who are alone. When people have their own fun in their zones, i want to serve ,at least as a cellgroup leader. There is times the people don't want my attention, the people who are alone wants the popular people's attention.

verse 12Speak and act as those who are going to be judged by the law that gives freedom.
yep i love God's commandment. its good, it guides my path, IT GIVES FREEDOM(FROM SIN,GUILT,MESS UPS,BROKEN RELATIONSHIP AND EVERYTHING). every problem in life is anticipated in the Bible. and i mean EVERY problem.

WOW POWERFUL VERSE HERE>> But someone will say, "You have faith; I have deeds."Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by what I do.

if i were to say that i have faith God change a person's heart, i must do it with that faith. Don't underestimate God's child. You will never walk alone.

Chasing after Your heart.

See things from the helicopter view of God

2007-08-12T10:11:00.000+08:00

how can you say your relationship with God is good when your action contradict?
You pray for good results, your pray for your own family problems to be solved but on the outside you complain and blame others that cause you to sin. Its always you, remember. the choice to conflict with others is your choice! its always you making the choice. In exam period whether you stay strong its your choice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't believe if you really did pray and God did not show you what you shld do-THATS IMPOSSIBLE! I HAVE FAITH IN GOD MORE THAN IN MEN. Its impossible for you to go to God and pray for others when you yourself is unwilling to forgive others. Is your prayer gonna be answered? Are your righteous?
A BROKEN RELATIONSHIP WITH OTHERS IS A BROKEN RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD. be humble and say you did wrong, hey its not about you anymore. Rejecting any chance to hear God's word is directly rejecting God cus in John 1:1 in the beginning there was the Word, the Word was with God and the Word is God! when CHRISTIANS say "dun always use bible verse" i get very very angry,respect God lah, do u take God's word as a burden!?@ what crap?? obviously you had not been doing effective quiet time. quiet time is a time for rest. Tired? all the more you nid to seek the divine rest.
No wonder you don't seek God, no wonder God don't speak to you. no wonder you r still the same. Galatians 2:20I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
I pray God give me wisdom and humble myself as a follower not a leader to help other ppl, anw i only got a few tens of years to live, jus go tru it den i will be in heaven. Thanks ar for all the trouble because it will produce faith and perserverance. Im growing ^^
James 1:12Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.
James 1:19-20 Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires.

quiet time!

2007-08-09T07:13:00.000+08:00

psalm 119:105: your word is a light unto my path.
Has been reading psalm 119. I really want yearn for God's word to be in my life as a lifestyle. in this chapter, it talks about how i love God's commandment:
The law from your mouth is more precious to me
than thousands of pieces of silver and gold.
I confirmed that i will follow God and will not miss out any chance to hear His word, through people, circumstance, Bible, through the church through Holy spirit or anything!
Yeah still rmb i told God that i will never give up no matter what.
Psalm 119:112 My heart is set on keeping your decrees
to the very end.it speaks all.
Psalm 119:120 My flesh trembles in fear of you;
I stand in awe of your laws.
Psalm119:124 Deal with your servant according to your love
and teach me your decrees.
Psalm 119:128 and because I consider all your precepts right,
I hate every wrong path.
Psalm 119:133 Direct my footsteps according to your word;
let no sin rule over me.
these are my prayers to you God.

2007-08-05T13:00:00.000+08:00

well was thinking shld we always go back to the basics and teach again?
Teach about praise and worship; its between me and God. DON'T care about what people think. Are you trying to set a image to let people see? think that your cool if u dun dance before God?? WRONG WRONG WRONG. WRONG x1000. I think the opposite. think about what God will think of you. Nid to teach abt having faith again? Not let situation affect me?
Hebrews 6:1So let us stop going over the basic teachings about Christ again and again. Let us go on instead and become mature in our understanding. Surely we don’t need to start again with the fundamental importance of repenting from evil deeds and placing our faith in God.
Find rest in God.
Hebrews 6:19 This hope is a strong and trustworthy anchor for our souls. It leads us through the curtain into God’s inner sanctuary. Wad is this hope? Dun say "when theres a will, theres a way"
When there is God, there is way, because Jesus is the way Himself! The way to everything. Hold on to the promises God promised.

Hebrews11:1-2 Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see. Through their faith, the people in days of old earned a good reputation.

2007-07-31T23:44:00.000+08:00

Hebrews 4 talking about God's rest. it is already there from the start when God created the earth. verse 6 So God’s rest is there for people to enter, but those who first heard this good news failed to enter because they disobeyed God. 7 So God set another time for entering his rest, and that time is today. Today will be the same tomorrow, i can't say its for tmr. Being a disciple starts today, being what Jesus wants starts today. When God speaks, hope my heart is not hardened. hm... not many times that im hardened but who knows man, maybe one day i get serious spiritual attack and decided to backslide O.o! haha being for God also means that i can't predict what i will do when hard times come but until now God had led me tru the times and had not fallen at all. YEah.
hm.. Prayer is the time of rest, rest from the labors, rest from the temptation, even rest from other people. What God gives is true comfort, He always assures that He can do it with me, the feeling will always be different from being with a human. Even i think that i can't give this kind of feeling to others. well maybe the difference is that God understands everything but i can only understand a part of it. prayer is not about praying for problems.
11 So let us do our best to enter that rest. But if we disobey God, as the people of Israel did, we will fall. gonna share on God's rest wooo!

Ah God. just thought of the backsliders. Sometime just can't help but blame them for letting down themselve, God and people around them. They show their true character when they leave God and go for the world. Once were in cellgrp but because of disobedience... Is God a burden??

live a life of testimony or a life wasted? When u go heaven will anyone even say good things about u? in funeral will people rejoice because your with God? or weep because of your sins?
Will people weep because u have done good in the past and they miss u?

Will you say 'yes' to victory and 'no' to sorry

2007-07-27T23:34:00.000+08:00

Hey God, jus wanna say that You mean everything to me man.
Without you, seriously there is no purpose in my life, everyday will be schooling and complaining and playing. Life will continue forever like this? but thats without You.
i need reminder of assurance so it could be outward.
hm... hehe not really good in 'emo' words LOL i guess thats me hehe.
Alright let me try doing some thingy.

verse 1:
Love that no one could provide
relationship that no one could deny
My heart was once chasing after the wind

Pre-chorus:
You held my hand when i am lost
You hear my call when all else had failed
You took the blame for all my sins
Show me the path that

Chorus:
Drag me to the living
forgiving all of my sins
Show me the way to live oh God
There is no one else i'll sing

Take my sack of burden
Be the guide to my feelings
Carry me upon victory
In you i shall find
A Love relationship

err haven finish anw gtg bb continue next time

Guitar craze for God~~!

2007-07-21T23:19:00.000+08:00

argh shots.
my guitar symptoms are coming out. i need a guitar man.
i would like to write songs and make some nice music just for God. write a love song.
rather than some songs that people sing just because the songs are nice or somethn, this is really singing to God above. Haha can imagine the kind of guitar riffs and the guitar solo parts woo.
Thinking of which scale to use? dun really know the theory well but it wont affect me.

above is the dream guitar~~ woo~~

God bless me. wish to be the worshipper of God in everything

2007-07-10T18:55:00.000+08:00

For my test i almost fail everything, well as normal got scolded by my brother, said wan me to study during weekend, God will protect me anyway. ^^ probably gonna forward some modules, Set a bad example for people but not gonna bother with emotions. If ppl were to ask me why i got such lousy result, i cant reply them. i control my emotions anyway, no AA, sry satan u wont see me fall, you wont see putting my nick as "haiz...stressed" too bad satan, u found the wrong guy just too bad.HAHAHA. Thank God i know how to recognize situations and not react to the flesh.
Went to the lift of my house, thought of the sermon learned on saturday abt having positive attitude, no matter what the situation i have the freedom to choose my attitude. It rocks to play my own emotions, when im sad i choose to be thankful, thats what the bible teach!

Thought of not going home, but on the bus i prayed to God in tongues, got off the bus, decided to go home and face the problem like a MEN

Dun feel like blogging, abit waste time lol, nid to think wad to write, rather pray to God, good bye~
but it can give a record of testimony~

memories...me, libin and fuad

2007-06-23T23:32:00.000+08:00

2007-06-22T23:38:00.001+08:00

Right on the day of Encounter retreat, God gave me a dream, dreamt that my mother died, I cried during my dream when i woke up, i found myself crying. God really spoke to me tru it, no matter what, i will never think bad abt ppl who persecute me, but have compassion for them. Nothing convicted me more than this dream.
Psalms 33 is a chapter on praising God! God revealed to me when i juz came back from ER. I didnt have knowledge that Psalm 33 is about praising God, i jus thought of reading a chapter that is abt praising God den somehow i anyhow type in biblegateway den it came out! Praise God, ahahahaha.
Im very tired physically. I woke up, suddenly spiritual attacks just come, it hit me hard, Thank God that He let me recognize it is a spiritual attack, dun blame it on others, i will blame satan HAHAHA satan ur stupid to hit me after i experienced God, come give me thoughts! see who will win, God or you.When persecution comes, it test my faith and let me depend on God, like it when i am with God and not with other things.
well im not a good leader but i will try my best, taking captive of every thought. Im sure im gonna lead by reacting what God wants me to react in all situations, God can see it, hope ppl do.
All i need is God. Problem might come but i dun need problems to live, i dun need emotions to rule over me to live of course i dun satan.
too bad im gonna praise God and not be saddened :P

Pslam 33:1 Sing joyfully to the LORD, you righteous;
it is fitting for the upright to praise him.
Pslam33:3 Sing to him a new song;
play skillfully, and shout for joy.
psalm 33:9 For he spoke, and it came to be;
he commanded, and it stood firm.
Pslam 33:11 But the plans of the LORD stand firm forever,
the purposes of his heart through all generations.
Pslam 34:1 I will praise the Lord at all times.
I will constantly speak his praises.
Pslam 34:6 In my desperation I prayed, and the Lord listened;
he saved me from all my troubles.
Psalm 34:19 The righteous person faces many troubles,
but the Lord comes to the rescue each time.

2007-06-12T10:27:00.000+08:00

a blog is meant to let people view or else wad for ppl would link each other? o.O?
if its private then its not called blog :) what you write in blog, be it complaints other stuffs, are to let others to view it and that shows your TRUE character. just for everyone's knowledge~ :):):):):):)
ytd had meeting wif cg leaders den go near yvonne hse there play guitar wif ken, den ongnei catchup wif us. wa den called yvonne, she just end sch at 6+!.

There's always a mediator in between, in Amos 7:1-6 Amos interceded for Israel as God was gonna destroy the land but Amos prayed for forgiveness in behalf of the whole nation.
Having a intimate relationship with God, even if its just one person, it can change the world. Amos didnt relly have any strategy or plans but just talked to God.
Then Amaziah sent orders to Amos: “Get out of here, you prophet! Go on back to the land of Judah, and earn your living by prophesying there! lol he said as if prophesying is fortune telling. Can't make a living tru God's word but can live with God's word.

2007-06-10T18:33:00.000+08:00

Finally, its holiday.
its gonna be packed though, gonna catch up alot so need to have self control to sit down and study.

Saturday was awesome, even though my flesh is weak but willing in the soul. Ghim planned icebreaker. its was good :D nice one gh. Hope there is more bonding in the people but hope they will not forget what they need to do.

just realize this kind of life is what i want, well it takes effort but its very meaningful, no longer live for yourself but for Christ, that a privilege!

Yea fearing the Lord is all we need to have. Once people have fear of the Lord they would not want to skip quiet time or even praying, who do you think God is? You can go out with frens but cant spend time with God?! Said want to change but never tried to be teachable and accept other's advice?
Recognize God's punishment.

Whats your heart condition.?

Amos 5:21 "I hate, I despise your religious feasts;
I cannot stand your assemblies.

22 Even though you bring me burnt offerings and grain offerings,
I will not accept them.
Though you bring choice fellowship offerings,
I will have no regard for them.

23 Away with the noise of your songs!
I will not listen to the music of your harps.

24 But let justice roll on like a river,
righteousness like a never-failing stream!

God dislike people do things because they have to do it. It may be in fellowship, praising God quiet time etc... God wants the heart! not just action! Even with great music and great skills, people dun have the heart to praise and worship God, its useless... but a people with heart of worship, praising God with simplicity, without good instruments or voices, God will be pleased!!

hey maybe guitar is my stronghold..Amos 5:5 You strum away on your harps like David
and improvise on musical instruments. Make sure it wont over take God, just like what ghim said, its in the Grey area.

2007-06-07T23:17:00.000+08:00

once God decided to do something, can anyone stop Him? His plans are always good thats why no one want to stop Him from doing whats good.

Amos 3:3 Do two walk together
unless they have agreed to do so? Sounds familiar?
Amos 3:5 Does a bird fall into a trap on the ground
where no snare has been set?
Does a trap spring up from the earth
when there is nothing to catch?
sometimes a trap( even you know that its a trap) is visible to us, we know it but we still get caught in that trap. why? Take a look at Amos 3:3

Amos 3:7 Surely the Sovereign LORD does nothing
without revealing his plan
to his servants the prophets.
God's plan will always be revealed to someone cause God want to involve them in the plan. Learned in Experiencing God.

Thank God that i know whats right and wrong and i know how to do right!
some ppl know whats right but they just don't know how to do right!

Im expecting God to work greatly~ now i have the relationship with my classmates(they r good guys) i want them to be saved.

yay Zealot chalet gonna come! And im gonna be preaching! Nice~ Hope God gives me the word, its very very very COOL when God just give u a 'sermon' to share on.

gonna blog more next time~

2007-05-28T20:44:00.000+08:00

yay asked yiming alex and siang chin to come for radical conference, pray that they not just come but experience and encounter GOD!!!!!!! WOO!!!! yea conferences are great!
haven been blogging =/. Gonna revise my work soon, my studies relly shrinking into a mosquito.

Aw i got headache and sore throat again...this shows im relying on m own strength. really hate these 2 cuz i can't sing well, if i sing, my headache will become jialat, den cannot hit high notes :(.

Zealot 3 gonna say i love everyone... although i dun really say it but its in my heart...
All i ever desire for the people is that they become people being able to die for God in all they do.
wat do i mean? u get what i mean when u were asked to do the impossible. hehe

Psalm 144:2 He is my loving God and my fortress, my stronghold and my deliverer, my shield, in whom I take refuge, who subdues peoples under me. awesome verse...

er am i relly that boring? hm.. try to be lame at times hehe.

hopes to be a pro guitarist~ yeah!

2007-05-22T15:12:00.000+08:00

>>>>>>warning the legendary green boney monster is coming to town...

I really need to learn well my guitar skills, i could think of many ways to praise God and write my own songs man...
hey God bless me one guitar, the passion is over flowing! im sure this is not just a feeling or emotion, it is passion~
Fire that wont burn out for God.

i will be a fool for Jesus my Lord i dun care wat others would think of me, i dun even care if christians say that wad im gonna do is impossible, Philipians 4:13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

Isaiah 50:7 -Because the Sovereign LORD helps me,
I will not be disgraced.
Therefore have I set my face like flint,
and I know I will not be put to shame.

The great commission:

1 Corinthians 9:15-16 I would rather die than lose my right to boast about preaching without charge. Yet preaching the Good News is not something I can boast about. I am compelled by God to do it. How terrible for me if I didn’t preach the Good News!

Empower me Holy Spirit

Isaiah 11:2 -And the Spirit of the Lord will rest on him—
the Spirit of wisdom and understanding,
the Spirit of counsel and might,
the Spirit of knowledge and the fear of the Lord.

im gonna bring Siang Chin and Yiming watch out cuz ur coming to God

2007-05-20T23:36:00.000+08:00

hey hey
here i am again to blog.
alrite, sat was awesome, loving God need joy in it so dat we can love with no regret, if we say we love God and we r troubled den, this love is not real becuz it may be obligation to say "i love God", think..
cafe was great and tiring as always, relly respect those who serve without complaining, every saturday they stay in church late to prepare and next morning woke up early...
Thank God i got the sense of humour and one relly amazing thing dat i didnt relly tell ppl is dat since i ever receive Christ into my life, He gave me a gift of singing and i so love my voice luh haha. Cause God gave it to me, in the past i dun sing.
Hope cellgrp grow alot more.

2007-05-16T23:26:00.000+08:00

Hey!its been a long time since i blog~
this will officially be my spiritual journal...God bless this journal hope no one comes xD
today was great(in the sense) althou there is a ap chem quiz today, i done badly but i invited my fren called yiming, dunno how we talk talk den i start to talk abt endtime, den he respond not very good like saying: aiya those thing stupid one la.
but nvm pray for siang chin and yiming that they will become chrisitians and eventually disciples of God.

I need some one to nag at me spiritual stuff! COME ON I NEED IT! PUSH ME PLS!!!
MAKE ME PANIC! MAKE ME BE FEARFUL! MAKE ME PRAYERFUL!
God give me everything!!! i need it.
well gonna pray that God provide me financialy, i try not to spend too much, but my transport too much luh... i must go mission trip this year and i pray that this year i would not have this inferiority in me when trying to lead ppl.

God give me more, i yearn for you, hope to see whole Earth knowing your love and not treat christianity as religion but a relationship.

oh i need to do well academicly and oh i need a guitar too!! praise GOD!!!

Love God..dun You ever leave me.

its God, the reason i live...

2006-09-06T14:05:00.000+08:00

once again im confused, i can only depend on God now. Its just like the 1st time i became core leader, literaly, everyone was my disciple, haha but thats good, becuz i know God can mould me tru all these, and its true! i think i became matured, and abit more playful.
hm...almost everything i do have a purpose, even like talking, its not that im bored, its because i wan to have a closer relationship with someone in this way, the guy can be true to me and share problems, eventualy i can teach the guy new things abt God and life.
Yep, God gave me a good life!(doesnt mean that i dun have problems and im rich or wad =..=") He gave me a life to serve others. Betcha, everything is serving God, like doing dnt, buy food for friends in recess, copying notes in school, even i may not be wrong but apologise(when Holy Spirit gave me thoughts in my head, i start to think, maybe i was wrong! and i give thx to God hehe, awesome), its not a chore, if i start to think it as routine and as chore, i will not be able to survive so long.

may see me jump jump cheerful monkey, actually i have times that im down, bogged by alot of things, have to plan alot things, study all these. it was just my thinking that God is not helping me, but Holy spirit softly told me to have faith, rewards are for those who endure, with zealous ambition to serve God. Yup Yup you are not wrong i have time being stressed just like you. But tru alot of brothers and sisters, i slowly learn not to let troubles trouble me, since i know how to do it, i must teach people how to do it, so i begin to teach to people everything i know!
In my mind i was thinking that it would be wonderful if they know these things and grow! Being spiritual is my greatest strength and my weakness too, unfortunetly...
its hard lol, wanting to be like liang zhi, able to teach well, and lead well. I dunno how to lead well, and i dunno how to teach well too...the way lz pushed me to leader is that he will let me know the importance of being this core leader, the ppl lifes are practicaly in my hands, i must have fear of God, not fear of lz la =...=". The things he said eventhou sometimes the tone is make ppl sad those kind, but it relly make sense, "if we want to give to God, give it the 100%, God don't deserve our half baked effort", come to think of it, relly make sense, cuz i haven got rid of my slacking character that is brought down from the past. In the past everyday was so slack, go school is to plae only, come back home play computer game, watch tv or sleep, but now life is more meaningfull, filled with purpose. Thank you God.

There are alot christian songs, but what i like most is All Day. Cuz the lyrics says everything i wan to say and be. To be elaborate, i dun care wat they gossip about me or say bad things about me, its alright, i wont let it affect me, devil got great plan for me bringing me down with his people. I dun care wat think have impression on me, but i care wat they think about christian, so non believers advice is useful too! must change their mindset of christians go church for girls, go there act holy or being proud that we go heaven they go hell, i must change! But its not enough for me to change everyone has to change! its saying i will not be ashamed being christian, being christian very paiseh meh? how come people would DENY CHRIST when ppl ask them, so sad, i pray God forgive them.